Music- Seizure

I never, ever thought this would happen but... I'm sick of music.

Is it possible that I've been so exposed and over-exposed and over-immersed and I should say "obsessed" that I'm completely swinging the other way? On the other hand, this could be one of those "Signs of Depression", when your "loved one" starts to care very little about their formerly "favourite past-times". Nah. This is for real. I'm sick to death.

What brought on this unlikely demise? Has it been developing since I first discovered I liked music? Or maybe it was when I decided to branch away from my parents music choices and find my own. Or, on the other hand, maybe it was when I started to discover really good music, western and eastern, and just kept digging a tunnel to the very core of music and the arts.

Or this could be a one-day-depression spree and I'm just really not fond of it right now.

But as for my beef with music, I do have some eclectic music choices and I can no longer tell if it's drawing me closer or farther.. to and from God. Naturally, worship "music" isn't going to count here.

I have an obsessive nature, otherwise known as the human idolatrous nature, and I definitely have issues with making an idol of music. After all, it's basically how I spend my recreational time. I used to think of myself as being rather well rounded. Well SURE I have rounded music tastes, but if all I do, think, say is music... well, I ought as well admit it. My life sucks and not because of any circumstances forced upon me, but because I decided to drown myself in a wasteland of music.

That makes very little sense.

I wish I could help people understand.. I can't listen to music without dissecting it; musically, historically, personally, culturally... rarely spiritually, but if it is, it's usually in a condemning, self-righteous manner.

So I should like nothing better than to turn off the music and focus wholly on God, but what do I have? I have music education and nothing else right now. I should probably try jogging, see how it feels to have the wind in my ears and the cracking of my joints... right.